The Nature Of Stuff & Social Anxiety Disorder

Yeah I know, I was thinking of “The Nature Of Things” when writing this. But this has everything to do with just how things are. Nature just happens. We live in it, though not in this part of it. All we see is skyscrapers in the bigger cities, or if you live in a smaller town then that’s what you see. It’s the same thing everyday. Cars driving by are always in a hurry. Birds flying south to get to the warmer parts of earth before winter hits.

Then comes along the outgoing kid in Grade 9. It’s now winter and everyone stays in because the cold is keeping them there. Every day is great for this one teenager, he has a circle of friends, he looks forward to going to school everyday and it’s all about the social part of school for the reason he goes, not the school work itself.

As it may be the same reason everyone else goes, the rest of the students in this school, there is still one weakness for this teenager, like a gust of wind could blow him over and he couldn’t get up even if he tried.

And what may be this weakness you ask?, well this guy likes to sleep in. Not because hes afraid of going to school, but because it’s so comfortable. And so he did that, for one whole school day he slept in. One day turned into two weeks. And at the end of those two weeks a phone was ringing. This was the principal. The word he gives is the message consisting of getting kicked out of high school because this guy has missed too much school work.

As I said before, a gust of wind can blow this guy over and he could not get back up. Now he sees the light. This light leads up a stairway to the computer. The computer turns on and because an addictiveness that is worse than drugs. Since there is no treatment for addictiveness to the computer this guy sat on it for enough time, being isolated alone that he developed a fear of people.

At the same time leaves start growing on the trees by the time this guy has developed this anxiety disorder, called Social Phobia or in other words, Social Anxiety Disorder. And it’s now spring, which doesn’t really lead into a newer beginning for this teenager, it’s the beginning to an end for his social life. Now the creeks spring out and the snow melts down the mountains. Overtime the snow melts enough that there is no more on the mountains.

The teenager starts to notice this, and because a part of depression. It’s out of control, he doesn’t know that thinking this way leads to no where and only prolongs the existence of depression. The more he remains afraid of leaving the house the longer he will stay there. Even if he leaves the house and faces the majority of his fears and he stays some what awkward or afraid of people that is the only way to get somewhere.

Now the temperature outside is much hotter, it’s much colder to stay inside and so it’s better off to this teenager to stay where he is. The least part is that he has a paper route that gets him out. He occasionally sees a friend of his from high school but he looks away each time. He does not talk to any of them. To him they are all now enemies. Even if he looked at them as people he could still remain in touch with they probably would just refuse, as this guy has changed for the worse.

But overtime things gradually get better. The snow starts falling again, the mountains turn white. Then once again the force of nature happens again, and the snow melts and the springs break out with water and the snow completely melts again. The leaves grow on the trees, and the depression remains for this unforgiven teenager. A path leads him the way into the work force, he then is forced to be in social situations. He takes jobs that consume alot of hours, he doesn’t recognize how much time that it’s taking out of his life and that he needs to focus on getting out of it, he is not taught this and he is not prepared. 5 years pass by and now he notices. There is still a chance. The snow has melted now and the creeks are running. Depression is noticed, for the cause and so it is not as much of an obstacle anymore.

He knows what he is going through because he discovered it through the internet 3 years ago. He is able to face his fears much better now and hes capable of coping, despite him still suffering, and going through a tremendously hard time with Social Anxiety still. A path is leading the way down a hard road, but it’s either he takes this route or he just accepts his current state and does nothing about it. Every year the forces of nature do their thing, as it is only beautiful to watch when your living a good life.

And so the will to get better is what drives this still young soul, distractions get in the way just like land slides blocking highways cause by the forces of nature. Nature is what Social Phobia is a part of, and cannot be blamed on anyone else specifically. It’s simply just the nature of stuff. So as a landslide blocks a road, incidents in this individual sufferer’s life get in the way and block his path, but he will simply have to either go around and take another route or stop until the messed is cleaned up. As long as he keeps trying there is hope for change. If he goes in the opposite direction and down south, then nothing can change, he will remain the same for the rest of his life. And so it will just be hot all year and as no progress is made for a long period of time he only gets worse in his mindset of depression, and likes to blame certain people or things for the reason he is in the place that he is currently. Anyways, that’s not where he is, he will keep going. And the forces of nature will continue to melt the snow, and the grass will get greener every year, and then the snow will fall again and the mountains will will get brighter than ever as they become filled with snow. This makes the path even brighter for this young soul, and so he continues to suffer but moves into the direction of change.